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10:01pm 09/12/2004
 
mood: happy
Ah, hello there dear old journal, I never seem to find time for you. It's not that I'm lacking time, I have hours and hours of time to myself everyday, thankfully. Being a senior is so nice, I only have 5 classes a day, and then I go home at the end of 6th period, since the afternoon is all studyhalls. Leaving at 12:30 is the most wonderful thing, it makes school tolerable. I usually am in coma for school though, no matter how much sleep I get, I can't seem to stay awake during class, especially Mr. Sheetz, he is the most boring man alive. Speaking of him, I have a paper due for him tonight that I am putting off by writing this.

Life has been so good to me lately, I'm back with my Jay. I really don't want to get into the whole mess, it's been discussed and rediscussed to death. But yeah, I'm back with Jay and couldn't be happier. Well, I could, if he were here! And he will be, for Christmas. He's coming down next weekend, I can't wait to see him again! I'm 90% sure that I have permission to go back up to Canada with him, yay! My parents are only hesitating because the only place I can stay is his apartment, and they don't want me "shacking up a Jay's place and coming home pregnant." But I really have no where else to stay, his mom moved and is in a tiny one bedroom apartment. If I did stay there, we would have to be sleeping in the same room regardless, so nyah.

I talked to Sara D. tonight for the first time in years, it was nice catching up. She's actually the one who inspired me to post in this journal. It's always interesting talking to people that I know in person online. Usually I can't really talk to them, especially people from school, they all type like dumbshits. I didn't seem to have that problem with Sara though <3!

I got my new computer this Thanksgiving, I think it's the best money I ever spent. I can finally play all the demanding games I've been wanting to. I don't know the exact specs of the computer in detail, I could look them up, but that would take effort. I know offhand that it's a 3000+ amd processor, gforce fx 5700 video card and a gig of ram. Jason Dorsey, my brother-in-law built it for me.

So now that I have my new computer, I've been playing Return to Castle Wolfenstein: Enemy Territory chronically. I even bought a headset so that I can talk to Jay while we play together without having to cradle a phone on against my ear. It's much fun, but I suck terribly. I've never played any FPS until this month, so not only do I suck at this game in particular, I suck at the whole genre of games. Ah well though, I'm learning! I don't think I do to terribly for a noob! Although I always make silly mistakes, like killing my own teammates when they're in disguise as the other team, oops! And I have a tendency to just stand there when getting shot at, I need to run around! Frolic! Frolic I say!

I also got the Sims 2 for my birthday present from Mel, Jason, and Ash <3! Its very pretty looking, and its fun to play. The only drawback of it versus the Sims 1 is that there are no usermade objects for the Sims 2. That's what I really loved about the Sims 1, downloading tons and tons of furniture and decorations to use. With the Sims 2, I only have the maxis made items that come with the game. The selection is very limited, and nothing seems to match really, especially not the wood tones...which drives me insane. Ah well, its still fun though!

Since I got my new computer, and all kinds of new games, I've seriously been neglecting my shops on Gaia online. I just finished a huge update and revamping of my Sneeps shop, which seems to have stirred new interest in the thread, which is always wonderful. My guppy shop, however, is hurting. I really don't know what to do with it. The way I have it now, it seems like there's no room for it to progress. So yeah, once I tire of my new games, its back to some serious gaiaing.

Ick, I hate winter! The dry air destroys my lips. So does my stuffy nose, it forces me to sleep with my mouth open, which dries it out. I hate sleeping because every morning I wake up with dried blood all over my lips, because they crack and bleed. Right now, I have one huge crack in the center of my lips, which always happens every winter. In rare instances, my tongue will dry-out, crack and bleed. It has only happened once or twice, but it was awful.

Rawr, I need to get a-workin' on my paper now, of course, I probably won't start until a few hours from now; I'm such a bad student. G'night all <3!		  
     
Inspire :9
 
Gah   
09:34pm 06/05/2004
  Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.
~ Anais Nin		  
     
Inspire :4
 
>:/   
07:13pm 04/05/2004
  Oh what do you know. Just just came home from school, talked to me for 15-20 minutes and he's off to play games. What a fucking suprise. I don't know why I bother.  
     
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Fuck the fuck off.   
12:15am 04/05/2004
 
mood: irate
Gah, I'm sick to fucking death of being second best to god damned video games. All Jay wants to do is play them. He wants to spend all his money on them. He'd rather spend money on them than save up to see me. I'm sorry, but that's fucked up. It hurts so much, he even said it himself. He'd rather spend the money and have fun playing the damned video games for a long time than spending a weekend with me. Not his exact wording, but yea. Whatever. Fuck that.

He was gone all weekend moving in, and he comes online for the first time in days and talks to me for about 45 minutes or so then he leaves to play ET. I wait around for him to come back, and he does, we talk for a bit, then he says he HAS to go to play more ET with Gary. I told him I wanted to call him this evening, and he said later. But it's fucking 12:00 and he JUST left. He said he'd be a few hours. Fuck that, I'm going to bed. I just wanted to talk to him, to my boyfriend, which is obviously too much to ask when there are video games to be played. I miss him, and not just the absence of him. I miss the care and attention he gave me. I think it'd only be fair if I put HIM at the bottom of MY priority list. Heck, that way we might as well break up! This isn't a recent developement either or anything. He does this allllll the time. Games games games games. Fuck games. Fuck them straight to hell. Goodnight.		  
     
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Trigun :D   
07:34pm 28/04/2004
  Omgosh, I've been uber sick all week. Some funny tummy thing, but not so funny really~ :(! I missed monday, tuesday, and I came home sick today. Hopefully I'll be all better by tomorrow. I'm going to be soooooooooo behind in school, I should just give up, rawr. I hate schoool.

Anywayyyyyyy! I've been really busy with my entries for the monthly fanart contest on Gaia. This months theme is Trigun and I did a cutesy chibi Vash thingy, I'm really proud of it. Right now, my place is fluctuating between 9-10 out 400+ enties. Which really rocks, I think. Eeeeee, and I would greatly appreciate it anyone reading this would vote for my entry here! Just click on that nice big 10, mwahaha. Du tu du, I'm off to work on my second entry right now ^_^;		  
     
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